Happy New Year!


Most people don’t like January because of the hole they’ve burnt in their pocket over the holidays. The hangover (from holidays or alcohol) stays through to the first week, and, in the middle of the month, they’re too broke to do much of anything. So, they stay home, and think about the year that’s passed, and what resolutions they can make, like saving money, for instance.

I like January. Yes, it’s a new month, and all. But it’s also my birthday month. Yay. And the fact that it comes and goes so quickly every year is kinda odd to go through. Some people like the month of January because that’s when they feel they can start over again, or improve their current life. People are motivated. They’re keen. And just as quickly as the month comes and goes, their motivation does, too. Well, for most people.

It’s a love-hate relationship with the month of January, I guess.

I know positive changes can be done any time of the year, but I think the fact that January is the first month of the year, the changes are planned to start on that month. Plus, it gives a nice hashtag #1outof12 (I just made that up – I know there is a similar hashtag, but unfortunately, I’m not up to date on that). You know what I mean.

So, anyway, I’ve sought inspiration from a Quora post about a week ago, and I’ve read similar posts before (like a Cyanide and Happiness comic strip). And I thought, why the heck not. One of the things to do is to write a book. I play Sims, and I always tell my Sim to write a book. So, no reason why I can’t write a book, really. Haha. No matter how shitty it may be – at least write one.

I’m also gonna read more books! I’ve bought so many last year that I think I’ve only read 3 or 4 books total.

I have something else to look forward to this month, which I will get to in the next post. That’s right; I’m doing segregated posts now for certain topics. I’ve upped a level in my blogging style. Ha. Ha. Ha.

2015, ladies and gents. 10 (edited: apparently, I can’t count :P) 20 years to go to Brunei’s Vision 2035. You still in?



my love’s too big for you, my love


It is one of those things that I’ve learned. People aren’t perfect. People make mistakes. At first, I was oblivious. No. Blind. I looked through the imperfections. I let myself become vulnerable. I know better now. I was angry. Then I looked at myself. I’ve done my share of bad things. So I suppose it’s only fair that something bad has happened to me. And that’s okay. I move on.

I get to know different sorts of people. How low a person can go. How high. My good friend once told me this:

you do realize you have to overcome this first, then you can move on to the problems of the world. if you have not fought this, it will be hard for you to accept what’s out there.

I wanted to believe that it was otherwise. The good people I have beside me have been so patient with me (or maybe not! hehe) and they’re glad that I’ve finally seen it for myself. Irony of that is that the person I’m disappointed with said to me this: “You have to see it to believe it”. And hell, I saw it without him realizing it. So thank you.

Life goes on as it never ends.

Yes, it’s painful. But everything will be okay. I’ll be okay.


The only person you have control over is yourself.


how things are.

strange how some things unfold. unexpectedly. and in better ways than imagined. wonders that God give.

2012 has been…interesting. The year began with a lot of uncertainties, and I’ve to admit it ended that way, too. But I am looking forward to 2013. To face it upfront and embrace the fact that I’m turning 25! Haha.

I’m looking forward to the year. Really don’t know what to expect from here. I had a nice surprise towards the end of 2012. And you’ve no idea how amazed I am with God right now. I’m so grateful.

Whatever comes my way, so be it. I’m open to anything. At least I hope to be. 


Firm, wise and disciplined!



Mixed Emotions

The past three weeks have been…a struggle.

I let go of few struggles. Then came another one. Then another. One can only cope so much…

People have their own struggles in life. It amazes me how people can overcome them…and even more amazed at those who think they can’t.

Woe is me.

I feel relieved, sad, probably heartbroken, scared, tired, lost? I can only find one positive feeling there. But I know this is temporary. Everything’s gonna be okay.

I met someone. Appreciation was mentioned, but I wasn’t recognized. It was not mutual. Then I noticed something. This isn’t a first time incident. The experiences aren’t exactly the same but similar. So I’m taking a stand. Again. I made a stand to one…two…three…and now four. Lesson learnt. I hope.

I made a stand to something that’s quite a big part of my life lately, too. Yes, I was scared and worried of what’s to come after. But I’m embracing this change. And I felt better. I feel better.

I’ve been tired. Of everything. For too long. Without me being able to face it upfront. There’s more to life than all this. So I made a decision. No more.

Just gotta be strong now. Pray. And be true to myself.